30.11.10

Limits


In the beginning of my D/s relationship with Master, He talked to me about limits.
We agreed that the obvious things; kids, animals, scat and dead people were definitely off limits and He wanted to know what other things I wanted to add.
Since I was new to the lifestyle and had hardly any experience or exposure to the many facets of living it, the list was rather short and I think rather obvious for a newbie as myself.
Things like no piss, no other women, and the like.
Later on I added no Mistresses, since they all looked very cruel to me in the clips I had to find during my training.
Since I had not experienced pain other then a slap on the butt I could not define what my limits might be and Master said He would expose me to all different kinds of kinky stuff so I could decide what I liked or not.
He gave me a safe word, which I could always use if things were not bearable or for any other acceptable reason.
Master found out, even before I did, that I liked pain, that it was an extreme turn on for me and that it could even give me orgasms! 
He had me feel all sorts of pain and I liked them all, even crave now for certain kinds, like getting whipped with His belt, or a nice over-the-knee-spanking with His hands.
Master knows exactly how much He can spank me though, how much pain He can give me.
Now of course far more then in the beginning, but He always seems to know exactly how far He can push me.
I also love it when He hurts my nipples, although it took a while before I could endure it the way He hurts them now.
I like it when it is hard and I am on the edge of using my safe word, how my mind functions during those moments and then to realize that I actually could bear it and how doing so makes me soaking wet.

Anal was never an issue for me, I had experienced it before and knew I really liked it.
Master has trained me further anally since the only thing I had ever had in there was a cock once in a while. So Master trained me to take his very large and thick cock for long periods of time, had me train the muscles with different sizes of butt plugs etc., and as we went along I became even more fond of anal, to the point I have reached now, where I am craving for it most of the time.
At a certain point I even started to have regular anal orgasms and they are even better than the vaginal ones as far as I'm concerned.
So far we had not discovered any really hard limits but during this learning process I started to change.
Limits became not that important anymore and the more Master exposed me to things, guiding me through all, directing me and monitoring every step of my way into submission, the more I trusted Him.
He always asked a lot of questions and I know now that was very important.

He needed to know how far He could carry me, how it made me feel, if I liked it and how to makes things even better.
At a certain point He could anticipate my responses either physical or mental better then I could and I learned that I could trust Him to keep me safe, sane and healthy.
I knew I could rely upon Him to make the right decisions and that He would never make me do something I would really resent.
So my limits disappeared as the trust grew, and in the meantime I have been exposed to many new things, even things that were off limits in the beginning, some things that I didn't even know existed and things that used to scared me.

I can say in all honesty that I am now a piss drinking slut! I crave for it and I love how Master uses me as His personal toilet.
I would never have suspected that I would feel this way and would wake up happy knowing that Master will dump His morning piss into my mouth.
I now love feeling His piss over my naked body and having His cock in my mouth while He empties himself.


And so there are multiple things He did to me or with me that I became to like.

As far as playing with another woman, my mindset also changed and with the right one I think I would enjoy it tremendously. I am secure in my relationship with Him, I am His slave, and from that security I can accept anything.
I am actually looking forward to the experience, curious as I am and with the right one it can add so much more pleasure.
Master did conditioning me for this though, knowing I was scared and insecure.
Again I can feel that what was once a limit has disappeared, because I trust Him to do right and not let something bad happen to me or have me treat badly by another woman (other then what's ordered by Him of course :-)).
As for Mistresses.....it so happens that I came to know one personally after Master exposed me to other people in the lifestyle. I came to like her and on request, with permission from my Master, she even flogged me - and I loved it....so much for my fears and resentment against Mistresses!


In the beginning of our relationship Master suspected that one day I would have few limits and that made Him want to push me further to find out where and what they were.

But so far nothing has really surfaced, but I have learned a lot, about myself, about what I really like, who I really am, and my needs and my cravings.
I learned to trust Him unconditionally and with that all of my fears disappeared. I welcome the unknown now, it excites me because all  that He has given me so far has brought me the most intense pleasure and deep satisfaction.
It is truly very rewarding and fulfilling to be able to give yourself completely to somebody else and let Him lead you, knowing everything will be OK, no worries, no limits, just the bliss of obedience and service.
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22.11.10

Release


Finally....after almost two weeks without my Master and only one permitted orgasm in the meantime Master made me cum...lots.
It was so built up inside me that it did not take long polishing His boots before I desperately begged for it, hoping it would be granted because I could no longer hold it.

The second boot was not any different and made me cum even faster, squirting even more....

My body calmed down after that and I could think a bit more clearly again. My mind had been a disaster the whole day I was waiting for Him.

Master had His supper while I cleaned His boots under the table.
It felt good, so good....I soaked up the moment realizing how much I had missed it.

Then I heard Master unzip.....and He ordered me to suck His cock, while still being under the table.
I jumped to it, as typically He makes me wait...makes me crave....suffer.
I felt so grateful, so amazingly fulfilled already...and again I tried to drink in the moment, down on my knees, where I belong, sucking my Masters cock....knowing this was only the beginning of the evening... and to be followed by the morning.

Spread her open

Very hot fisting.....makes my cunt twitch !

10.11.10

"Master, please hurt me"


........And He did, many times.
After I polished His boots, He ordered me on my knees on the slave bench and threw me on the bed by my hair.
He gave me a hundred with His belt, and had me count them.
No breaks, no relief.
They even seemed to come faster after the first fifty.
I loved it, first the pain, Master always start the same as He finishes....hard, then the wonderful feeling of acceptance, total submission....
Counting means I have to concentrate, and for me that is not going into subspace, which I really don't mind, I like feeling the whole thing and to be fully aware of how my body reacts to it.
Of course at a certain point the pain recedes, usually when I feel my ass burning.
But then back to reality.....more delicious pain, till the end.
The feeling when it stops is amazing - the warm glowing of my butt cheeks, the effect it has on my cunt, which throbs like crazy and gets dripping wet, the satisfaction of how hard it is to endure and yet also so easy....
Usually spankings work me up to orgasms, wonderful paingasms. When I am to count I still have them, but they are much harder to achieve since I am so focused on not losing count.
This time I did not have one, but I did not miss it, this was perfect.....feeling every spank to the fullest, peeking at my Master at times when He abused my ass, the struggle to stay focused.....I loved it !

Master also abused my tits until the point I cannot wear anything over them without feeling all the abuse over again. .....as if I mind :-)

A few weeks back He removed the plastic covers on the crocodile clamps, the adjustable ones, so they are now two rows of tiny sharp teeth. Once placed on my nipples, they are hard to endure at the beginning but within half a minute they settle and are actually nice to have on.
The true torture comes when Master pulls on them, takes them off or they get ripped off......

I accidentally ripped them off myself when, during an orgasm, Master ordered me to remove a set of regular clamps which He had placed on each side of my clit, with the nasty ones on my tits.
Pulling my hands up while removing the clit clamps (while still in restraints) I forget the others were still attached by a chain, and without thinking I pulled them off....

Having those sharp clamps on multiple times, left my nipples very sensitive, even a breeze causes an intense sensation now.
But.....Master was not done torturing my nipples, spanks, slaps, followed by twisting them with His fingers, all inflicted sharp pains, that travelled through my whole body.
Painslut that I am, this also this made me dripping wet. 

Master told me I had to beg for everything from now on, not only for cock worship or letting me have an orgasm, but everything. So I did.
I begged to worship His cock, which was the easy one, since Master already trained me to do so long time ago and I simply crave having His cock in my mouth for hours.
So now I was also to beg for Him to hurt me, to degrade me and to fuck my ass.
Of course it was up to Him whether to grant any of these things as well as the particular way He would hurt me or degrade me.
Begging for an orgasm I have always had to do too, and after a severe punishment for forgetting this once, I will never ever neglect this again.
Begging for ass fucks are not really a problem since I always get plenty of those, if I beg for them or not, but I must admit.....begging for them adds a new dimension....

During the night when I slept at his feet, I woke up a few times. I held His feet close to me and fall back asleep.....happy as a little girl who holds the most precious thing in the world.
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7.11.10

Used until raw

It is Sunday afternoon, and my Master left me a few hours ago. My body hurts all over; my nipples are raw  (even a T-shirt over them is too much), my cunt can still feel my Masters fist in it and my ass feels empty without His cock.


Master did exactly what He had promised. He used me, abused me, hurt me, and fucked me over and over again. He was rough and demanding, emphasizing that there is no doubt about who my owner is and that He can do as He pleases with me. 
As resourceful as always, Master had some new things for me in mind.
He wanted His supper alone at the supper table, He expected me to have finished my supper before His arrival.
Before Master started to eat, He sat me backwards onto a chair with my ass plugged. My cunt was then filled with the huge dildo and my tits were both clamped and then attached to the chairs back. If I moved even an inch in any direction my tits would feel it.
He then gagged me, had my ankles tied together under the chair with his belt and my hands tied behind my back with the leather restraints.
The only thing I was capable of now was to grind my wet holes down on the plug and dildo.
So I sat there, quietly while Master finished His supper. At first I was very uncomfortable because the dildo had been bluntly shoved into me and I felt more invaded then pleasured by it.
I concentrated instead on grinding down on the plug in my ass. Master had already fingered me there and by the plug was a nice continuation.
Gradually, I relaxed and the dildo's movements became more and more pleasant, so I wiggled back and forth, rolling my hips to alternately fuck my ass with the plug and my cunt with the dildo.

Finally, I came so hard the dildo was forced out by my contractions. Mmmmm.


Helpless, I felt my wetness dripping onto the chair seat while Master finished His supper.



I was still wearing my high heeled over-the-knee boots when Master ordered me on to my back and to grab my heels.
With one movement He shoved His cock as deep as He could into my cunt, and all I could do was gasp.

My body  is very well trained by my Master. It is always wet and ready when Master is with me, no matter what we are doing, no matter how many times He has fucked me or however many orgasms I've had, it stays wet and ready for His cock to use.

Sometimes I will wake up in the middle of the night at His feet, and I can feel this wetness coating my thighs.

So He had no trouble thrusting in deep and hard and I was surprised that it felt even deeper than when He enters me from behind.
He pushed one leg way over my head so my ass was high up in the air and He kept on slamming into me, while I desperately held on tight to my heels. I was determined to stay in that position and to let Master have His way.
The poundings were so hard I felt my piercing pressed into my clit with every stroke and I could savor every inch of Him going in and out.
Then all of a sudden he withdrew His cock and quickly forced it deep inside my ass. He then began to fuck me, deep and hard, before eventually switching His pace with slow and gentle strokes.
I melted. I gasped.. I am still amazed every time at how good this feels .
My anal orgasm was inevitable and out of this world.... eventually when I recovered my senses, I thanked my Master for it.




I was awoken this morning by my Master brutally slapping my face.

I begged Him to let me drink His piss and to my delight, He snapped His fingers twice.

I crawled onto the towels which are always ready for when Master wants to use me like this. Whether it is to feed me His piss or just that he wants to piss all over me, I can't wait.

I knelt down at His feet with my eyes closed, and head up,  shivering with excitement for Him to piss down my throat.
As greedy as always I tried to drink every drop and when I had my mouth closed over His cock, I could feel Him unloading His piss deep inside me.
I swallowed each load and from the pleasure in doing so, I felt myself orgasm and squirt.

When I am alone, I wake up craving for Him to degrade me like this.

6.11.10

Lucky me !


Yesterday was the first of the three times I am going to be with my Master this week.
In a few hours Master is coming over till tomorrow and then again Tuesday till Wednesday morning.
I am going to get spoilt, get very sore, most likely black and blue, but oh so satisfied and happy.
Master told me to write a post for this blog after each session, so here comes Yesterday's experience.
Master had to work, so I drove up there and met Him in the back of my car in the alley we have been a couple of times before.
Unlike myself, Master does not like to fuck in public, He prefers His privacy but sometimes there is no other option, so then the back seats works for a few hours.
I like it when people pass by and I have to keep my head down, while having His cock in my mouth.
Nothing beats the feel of His cock deep down my throath, and believe me its going in all the way.
Usually I always arrive plugged and wet, without any underwear (which I never have to wear anyways, eccept as punishment :-( ) or bra, only wearing jogging pants and a dark T-shirt.
It does not attract attention and has easy access for my Master.
I always have the clamps with me, my collar and lube, the collar is put on right away and this time Master told me to clamp my cunt both sides.
After I was allowed to worship my Master cock many times with my hands and mouth, He told me to remove the butt plug and turn around.
Within one second His cock went as deep as it could into my ass and it felt wonderful.
I started fucking Him while the clamps kept on moving and made my cunt even wetter then it was before.
The whole world could have seen me, but I never look outside and honestly I could not care less who would be out there watching.
Then Master reached for the ring in my cunt and started rubbing it onto my clit.
Electric vibes went through my body....His cock in my ass, the clamps and then this, I was ready to explode right there and then.
I wanted to ask permission, but I know as soon as I ask it the orgasm is even harder to hold, and instictively I felt it would not be granted......
I concentrated on pleasuring Him instead of feeling my body fighting this and for a little while it worked.
Then I asked, begged Him to let me have it and I could......
I got both, I started to orgasm vaginally and the anal one came right when the first one was at his height.
I love it when my body responds like this, and although I have to wait before I can have one, I know it makes it so much better.
It was intense and I even remembered to thank Him properly for this orgasm !.
In only a few hours Master will use His property again.
He told me He is going to abuse each inch of my body, let me drink His piss over and over again, fuck and fist all His holes over and over again and make tons of pictures for this blog !
So hopefully soon all you lovely readers will be able to see how I've been used this time !

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